ahandsosturdy

what you want

Thu, 31 Jan 2008 14:30:27 GMT

123.6

breakfast: 3 cups of coffee [0]; cig
lunch: tba [hopefully nothing]
dinner: tba
waters: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8
total calories: tba
total cigs: 1 [so far]
exercise: tba

its been a while. i'm back.
sorry about that. lately i've been
stuck in this 123-125 stage.
i need to get out of it. i WILL get
out of it. i have to. i can't do anything
less than perfect today.

i might be hanging out with this kid
i like today. either today or tomorrow.
we've got half days in school. i'm in the
library right now cause i was exempted
from my foods exam. yep yep.

i can't sleep.

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 03:03:22 GMT

132.6

intake
b: nothing
l: coffee
d: nothing
s: small bag of pb m&ms.
w: [x] [x] [x] [x] [x] [x] [x] [x] [x] [x]
e: 10 mins on exercise bike; 10 mins on arms; 400 crunches;
10mins on legs; 400 crunches; 10 mins on exercise bike

i was 127 two days ago. and now i'm 132. i need to get back
down to the 120s. i'm fasting tomorrow. i need to do this.

and tips on how to shed the pounds fast?!?!?!

ciao.

so fuck you and your untouchable face

Sun, 12 Aug 2007 12:50:32 GMT

hey girls. i'm back.
i'm so sorry i haven't been on here.
its been a long time, and i'm really sorry.

so everyone...tell me how you are!!!!
i feel like such an asshole for not being on here
to support all of you guys.

i'm doing pretty well. i just got back from vacation.
i was gone for 3 weeks. and i felt like i had gained 15lbs.
but....i only gained....1!!!! haha. i mean...i did gain...but i feel
pretty good that it was only 1 lbs. and i WAS going to start a fast.
but i can't cause i'm having lunch with someone after church today.
ugh. but i'll start it tomorrow...maybe. :D

intake [thus far]
b: 2 cups of coffee
l: tba
d: tba

cw: 131.2

ciao.
<33333333

mcfatty.

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 00:15:21 GMT

i'm such a fatass.
while i'm typing this, i'm eating a pint of ben and jerry's.
which i probably will eat all of.

sorry i haven't updated in a while!!!!!!!!
i miss the new people i met on here!!!

140.2
ugh. i'm back to the fucking 140's.
i was 136 a few days again.
then i was 138.2.
ugh. i hate this.
i hate so much today.
which is why i'm just eating some ice cream tonight.
i'm going to start eating......nothing, tomorrow.

ugggggggggggh.

i can't stop thinking about what happened today in Virginia.
i can't stop thinking about those victims.
they, along with their families, are in my thoughts and prayers.
i hope no one knew anyone from Virginia Tech that was involved.
and if you do, i am sorry for your loss.

<3333333333

smoke

Wed, 21 Mar 2007 20:21:28 GMT

so i didn't weigh myself today.
or last night. so yeah.

intake for today
b: 2 or more cups of coffee
l: [here we go] cheese & roast beef sandwhich; chips; two cookies; milk
d: i think we are having home made chilli or something.

so yeeeeeeeeeeeah.
and i think i might go upstairs and do some exercises.

question of the day: what is everyone's favorite exercise?

stay strong.
<3333333333
a.

bones sinking like stones

Sun, 18 Mar 2007 02:06:18 GMT

my joints ache. i'm cold. and i feel unexplainible.
my parents keep making little comments to me.
about how i don't eat.
i don't eat because i hate eating.
because when i do eat, i can't stop.
and i exercised like a fucking freak today.
10 minutes this morning.
and then 30 minutes this afternoon.
i just want to feel bones.
bones bones bones.
i eat nothing.
and i exercise every day.
yet nothing changes.
my thighs are still fat as ever and touch.
my stomach still rolls.
i'm sick.
i'm sick because i don't want to feel this way.
i don't want to be this way.
but something in my brain is telling me to.
and i want some cigs.
but i don't have any. but i need some.
now. and i need to see myself disappear.
but i need to stop. i need to stop this.
damn it.

Sat, 17 Mar 2007 18:20:42 GMT

i did 10 minutes of yoga this morning.
it was very very nice.
and 80 crunches.
woot woot!!!!!

b: chocolate chocolate chip muffin; coffee
l: water
d: tba

so yeah.
my parents have been yelling at me.
cause i don't eat breakfast anymore.
and now they are making me.
they said i can't have coffee until i eat something.
and god knows i need my coffee.

<33

ps. i don't want friends who will judge what i write in this journal.

got that swing

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 18:04:37 GMT

heeeeeeeey.
so this is my new journal.
i used to be ohthe_placesigo
and yeah.
you should know...that i get very bored.
so i decide to make new lj's.
haha.

so.
how is everyone?!
i'm pretty damn good.
thank you very much.